2018, thank you for the best days, you’ve served me well. For the not so good aka horrible days, well at least it made me appreciate and realise more about this world. Or in fact, how horrible this world really is despite some of the good things. I’ve learned so much for the past 1 year.
Here are some poems I wrote this year, just gonna release them here. Some are horrible some are still acceptable, but all were part of my life. Be it this year or my lifetime.
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Constant
You’re my favourite constant
My kaleidoscope to constellation
To hopes and euphoria
To the day we will get our first tatts together
and the day our kids meet
We are gonna dance to BTS songs at twenty eighty
Even with dementia, you’ll be recalled
Constant to the very last birthday, cheers 🥂
Euphoria
it’s like in an..
abiding state of euphoria
swirling, rotating, trippin’
denying sorrows, getting all plugged up
twenty four seven
Sunflower
I’m a sunflower, a lil funny
Who are you, always intriguing me
Or I’m just too analytical
Do you really love a sunflower
Or it’s for something else
Whatever is it
You’re still her remedy to melody
You get her tripping, swirling in euphoria all the time
Falling into something non of us know
Is it loneliness, neediness
cos I want this forever
I love you
Night
Is the night young
Why do I love staying up all night
Why can’t I sleep
Is it because I’m so queer
So different
What’s wrong with my ancestors
What’s wrong with my DNA
Why can’t I sleep
Do I love the night so much
Is it because it gives me something the day couldn’t
Night, the only time of the day where I’m alive
Time
I feel like
Crying, whining, breaking
Throwing tantrum
Hoping for time to run
Just for my heart
Just as my brain doesn’t
As I won’t be unbounded anymore
But just for my heart
Still trapped, lost, helpless now
...till the days I see you
Social media
Ugh tbh I hate this two term
Everyone needs their social validation
Dependent on this feedback loop
Making their brain vulnerable
Everyone wanna quit this toxicity
But is it even that bad
It’s just life anyway
Good and bad
Is good really for good
No one is perfect
It’s just different degree of badness
But is badness really that bad
What’s experiences without a little fun
Just keep everything in moderation
And you’ll be good
Why is everyone obsessed with the good
Even the bad ones
Game
Life is exactly a game
You’re in control of every single fucking thing
And there’s a time limit
Once you hit 20, 40 and 60
You gotta achieve something
It may be things like happiness
Need not to be grand
But you gotta have it
You gotta win it
Happiness
My favourite thing in the world
Reason why I’m living
Best feeling on earth
Scientist call it dopamine
But having it is a choice
Happiness is a choice
Choose it
Be happy